Posts Tagged ‘awareness’

When I created this blog last summer, I wasn’t really sure what I would write about on a consistent basis — or if I even could. I just knew that how I was experiencing life was changing. Writing about it, I found out, as time went on, was challenging. I couldn’t stop and write about what was happening, because I needed to live it. I needed to stay in the moment, to grieve what was changing, to look at behaviors that were troubling me. The process was much too personal for me to share.

I so appreciate being alive when so many on the planet are waking up to Themselves. I am grateful for the many teachers who are assisting us ~ Abraham-Hicks, Eckhart Tolle, Wayne Dyer, Mike Dooley ~ and all the many more who do not have national and international recognition. Spending time on Facebook and Twitter has shown me how much people yearn to live up to their full potential, and how many are out there to help us.

And so I’m stopping in today to say hello. I have no idea if anyone reads this blog. It’s not really important. Who I really needed to say hello to was myself, anyway.

Last summer, when I was thinking about being an Awareness Apprentice, a friend of mine said “Remember in The Sorcerer’s Apprentice how Mickey created chaos in his desire to learn the sorcerer’s magic?” In retrospect, that is sort of what it’s been like, and often still is. Let go of the past and the floodgates of emotion are bound to break open. Then breathe. Breathe in Now. Breathe in Now. Breathe in Now. It’s all we have.

It’s OK. The emotions are OK. The fear is OK. The voices have something to teach us. We may have stories about who we are, but they are just stories. We can write new ones.

Today I know I am Loving and Loveable. Every day I feel less and less broken.  I am taming those wild emotions that used to control me, and sometimes still do. I am learning how. Breathe in. Breathe out. Are those feelings true, or are they just one of my stories? What is true? What do I want? Ask and see what happens.

I’ll be back and write some more when I have something more to share. No pressure. Just Be.


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Awareness of Seven Mandala – © Sue O’Kieffe 2009

Seven is a number steeped in ancient mysticism, pagan tradition, and alchemical processes.  In numerology seven is an “intelligent seeker of knowledge” and corresponds to the mutable signs (Pisces, Gemini, Virgo and Sagittarius) of the zodiac.  Seven energy is introspective and meditative. I asked my guidance more questions regarding their suggestion that I use the seven rayed configuration. I asked if seven was the most appropriate number for all of my art, and they said no.

Hmm. How do I feel about following this advise? Well, I know I have a choice. I don’t feel like I have given up any control. I look at the process as more of a collaborative effort.

I enjoy all this intellectual investigation. I am curious and aware that  a much larger mystery is involved that right now I am not able to comprehend.

This is just all part of my apprenticeship.


Update 7/29/09: I found this possibly related post that wordpress selected to go with my post. There is a whole bunch of information there on the number seven. Serendipity!

Update 7/30/09: I received a message from fellow mandala creatress Shari Brooks about seven pointed stars and pointed me to this information on her blog. When an intention is set, the information flows.

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The past few times I have started to create a new mandala, I’ve  picked up my pendulum for guidance. I’ve asked how many rays I should use for the next mandala. Everytime I’ve asked I have received the same reply.


Today I asked, is there a reason you are guiding me to seven? (I know. Duh, right?) And then I asked, Do you want me to learn more about the number seven?

So this will be my journey for a while.

I have been fascinated with numerology since I was in grade school. My mother was a seeker and I was her apprentice. She read an article about numerology in some woman’s magazine way back then, and we both were fascinated. Now that I am older, I am an apprentice once again. I am more conscious these days. I am waking up to who I am, and I rejoice that I am not alone. The Age of Aquarius has even arrived, on Valentine’s Day this year.

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When I finished the beginning stages of this mandala, I gasped and could feel my heart opening. I also grounded and claimed seniority. This mandala looks juicy and fresh. I also see the beings which appear in most of my work. I can rationalize that as being part of the joy of working in symmetry, but I know there is more.

I love this part of my life, full of newness.

I started this blog because I wanted to write about my experiences separate from the other places where I write. They are, of course, all entwined. Whatever needs to come out of this place will be made known over time.

Who wants to join me in the journey?

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